Yuxing... i read ur blog.. den suddenly i have de same feeling... ha...
coz i keep skipping lessons... haha... coz i am veri rude?~ haha!! coz i am a freaK!!!! i realli think tat i am kind of freak sumtimes.. why cant i juz be a good gal... everyday go sch... listen 2 teacher... dun think so much.. be a model student... study hard... dun join cca... even if join.. still put ur studies before ur cca.... wat de... i hate it.. and also.. dun be such a loud person... oh man.. thinking of it.. i realli think tat i SUCKS to de CORE!!!... wat is this man!!! maybe i am realli juz a loner.. i am antisocial... yeah?~ha... sumtimes i realli hate myself for doing all these but i simply duno why am i still doing all this.. i hate de way i bring myself.. i hate de way ppl look at me.. i hate de way i am.. but i have 2 accept de fact that i am who i am.... maybe is because me myself.. in my heart.. i am too compertitive with de ppl ard me?!~ always thinkin that i can be better den whoever is ard me.. and this causes me 2 be nt like me?!~ i hate tat... i duno wat am i doing... everyday.. reach hme.. i will have 2 online.. study!?~ no way.. wat happen 2 me... during my primary n secondary sch days.. i have never have de guts 2 nt study for ani test/quiz.. i have no guts 2 skip ani lesson.. nt even being late.. but why... i have changed since i came into poly.. have i realli make a wrong choice by entering into poly instead of going for 3yrs Pre-U course?~ i think so.. i regretted.. i realli regretted... i hate it when i am getting more n more worse.. i am realli getting frm bad to worse.. i wanna change.. but i am half hearted.. arGH!!!! i think i simply suckx... haiz.. but still i have 2 love myself as who i am... wat de... haiz.. nw... have 2 rush off le.. if nt.. later late again.. i realli duno wat i will do le..
*i am realli wondering what have i become.. why have i become so rebellious... why have i become so lazy.... arGh!~*
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